What's for dinner

Shrimp stir-fry... What are you having for dinner?

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The scale is not my friend.

Here is my problem, when I am not working out or trying to lose weight I NEVER get on the scale.  I mean NEVER.  I avoid it like the plague.  Then when I am trying to lose weight, I become obsessed with it.  I get on it every day and even multiple times a day.  I get frustrated because it fluctuates. I it a never ending process.

I am baning my self from the scale until next week.  I weighted Sunday. So I can't weigh until next Sunday. I kind of have a problem with the I want it now syndrome. Do you remember the little girl from "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory"?  I think her name was Bianca.  I remember in one part of the movie she would whine "But I want it now daddy!"  That is how I feel about by weightloss.  I want to see results and I want to see them NOW!  I keep having to tell myself "You didn't gain this weight over night and you aren't going to lose it over night."  It is the truth.  So one goal at a time one step at time.  It will happen with time.

I have made the most important step I have started doing something about it.  That is the hardest step.  That and sticking with it.  Part of me is afraid {fear} that we won't stick with it and that I will gain it all back.  {we have done this so many times} I hoping to stick with it.

I feel trapped and ashamed of my body.  I want to be able to get out and run, play and bike with my kids.  Go hiking if we feel like it, or play sports, but I don't want to right now because of how big I am.  It is just the way I feel.

I feel ashamed because I need to lose a whole person.  I need to lose about 150 pounds.  It just seems so overwhelming. 

I know this is a rambling post. I just wanted to let y'all now where I was.  I am sticking with it right now.  We are working on week three of  P90X and Shakeology.  I love the Shakeology!

Night-time Story Levi Style

This is Levi's night-time story that he told me:

There was a boat out in the middle of the sea.
There came a storm. Boom Crash
They got there umbrellas out and to mop.
Then they went inside.
The lights went out. {some kind of electrical sound I can't repeat}
They played quiet games.
Then the clouds went away and the rainbow came out!
The End!
That was a great story!

They make me smile!

Night-time Story Micah Style

The other night the boys wanted me to tell them a story, but I was so tired so they told me a story instead and this is Micah's.

There once was a princess. 
She was jumping.
She was playing hopscotch.
She broke a picture on the grass.
Then came a monster.
The king came and scared the moster away.
The End.


Think this may be a new nighly ritual. {grin}
I love my boys!!

What is for dinner

Grilled lemon pepper fish and stemmed summer veggies which is squash, zucchini, cauliflower. It was YUMMY!
Never thought I would say that!


Another thing that has helped us, is that when we grill, we do several dinners at one time. We will grill chicken, pork tenderloin, fish. We then separate then out for dinner each night. All we have to do is heat up some veggies or fix a salad. We don't just love to cook, so it helps us decide what to eat and plan it out.

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While we were waiting

While we were waiting on Steve, this is what we did:












We had so much fun! We even got rained on.

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P90X

We have started our second week of P90X. It is tough.  I hurt in places I didn't know existed. I picked P90X because it was something that my husband wanted to do and was willing to do it.  It requires some time.  It is about an hour to an hour and half.  We have to pause through the DVD to catch our breath and take a break some times. 

We are following the meal plan that comes with it, the P90X Performance Bars, P90X Results and Recovery Drink  and Shakeology.  I love all of it.  The P90X Performance Bars are good.  They are a good snake.  The Recovery Drink helps take care of the soreness.  It taste like a orange cream soda.  They Shakeology is WONDERFUL!!!  It is like a chocolate shake.  We are doing the chocolate right now, we will eventually try to Greenberry.  They are packed full of vitamins and minerals.

This is the best I have ever felt.  I have more energy.  I don't feel groggy when I get up in the morning.  I am sleeping better.  I just feel better over all. So far I have lost a total of six pounds in the first week. I have measure to see how many inches.  I just can't explain how much better I feel. 

I would like to encourage you to find a workout plan that will fit you and your needs.  P90X isn't for every one, but find one that works. Beachbody has several different workout plans. You even get a coach to help you.  Do something!!! 

What I can do

This is what was running through my mind while I was cleaning last night.  God speaks to me while I am cleaning some times.  HA!

Scripture says "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philipians 4:13

I can those weight "through Christ who strengthens me."

I can regain control of my finiance "through Christ who strengthens me."

I can complete the work-out "Through Christ who strengthens me."

I can reach others "through Christ who strengthens me."

I have always felt that through me losing weight that it would be apart of my ministry, part of my testemony. I know that while I am on this journey of weightloss that God is going to speak to me and minister to me.  Then, I will tell others what he has done through me, and they will gain hope and faith that he will do the same in them. 

So please be praying for me as I go through this journey that God will give me strength to do this, for HIS glory.  It is the only way I am going to get through this. 

Please ask me how I am doing on it.  It will help keep me accountable.

Crazy Boys

I ask for a picture of them together and this is what I get:







Finally a cute one!


Silly Crazy Boys!!!

quiet time

Today I was read this this devitional today and it was talking about resting. We all have a lot going on and we have many things that require our attention.  That take us away from spending time alone time, quiet time with God.

The apostles gathered around Jesus and reported to him all they had done and taught. Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have a chance to eat, he said to them, "Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest." So they went away by themselves in a boat to a solitary place" (Mark 6:30-32, NIV).

There are just time that we have to take ten, fifteen, twenty minutes and just get by ourselves and seek the face of the Lord. That is where true rest comes from.  Yes we can take vacations or weekend getaways and they help, but they only last for a time.  

If we take time everyday to read, pray, and worship God,  He will give us rest.  It isn't always physical kind of rest, but a spiritual kind.  You shed the business, problems and junk of yesterday and get ready for today. We have to make God our priority everyday.  Just like your spouse and kids want your attention.  

snow snow snow

Where is all this snow coming from!?!  We never get snow like this in Arkansas.  We usually get one dusting and that is it.  This year we have had the most snow we have ever had in a long time.  This week Northwest Arkansas got about 18-20 inches of snow.  I think we got about six inches in the Southwest Arkansas.  I am not sure what the combine totals for this year is though. 

We didn't get out and play in the snow the first day.  It was just a coming down. It was so pretty!!! love seeing snow fall.  So the next day, we had to get out just to enjoy it. By that time it had already melted a little bit.  The best thing about living here and getting snow is, it usually doesn't stick around long.  Usually, we have it for two-three days and it is gone.  There have been exceptions.


I so love this little boy!! He had just thrown a snow ball at me.  He thought it was so funny! Can you tell!?!



Love these little faces so much. 

I think they played more in the water puddle than in the snow.


They had fun and that is all that matters.


So thankful for my little boys!

What I want to become.

These are just a few things that I long to be or that I feel that I am now. Hopefully the list will grow as I continue to Grow in God.

• Kind
• Gentle
• Self-Controlled
• Disciplined
• Generous
• Compassionet
• Virtuous
• Wise
• Joy
• Strength

Proverbs 31
10 Who£ can find a £virtuous wife?

For her worth is far above rubies.

11 The heart of her husband safely trusts her;

So he will have no lack of gain.

12 She does him good and not evil

All the days of her life.

13 She seeks wool and flax,

And willingly works with her hands.

14 She is like the merchant ships,

She brings her food from afar.

15 She also rises while it is yet night,

And provides food for her household,

And a portion for her maidservants.

16 She considers a field and buys it;

From her profits she plants a vineyard.

17 She girds herself with strength,

And strengthens her arms.

18 She perceives that her merchandise is good,

And her lamp does not go out by night.

19 She stretches out her hands to the distaff,

And her hand holds the spindle.

20 She extends her hand to the poor,

Yes, she reaches out her hands to the needy.

21 She is not afraid of snow for her household,

For all her household is clothed with scarlet.

22 She makes tapestry for herself;

Her clothing is fine linen and purple.

23 Her husband is known in the gates,

When he sits among the elders of the land.

24 She makes linen garments and sells them,

And supplies sashes for the merchants.

25 Strength and honor are her clothing;

She shall rejoice in time to come.

26 She opens her mouth with wisdom,

And on her tongue is the law of kindness.

27 She watches over the ways of her household,

And does not eat the bread of idleness.

28 Her children rise up and call her blessed;

Her husband also, and he praises her:

29 “Many daughters have done well,

But you excel them all.”

30 Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing,

But a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised.

31 Give her of the fruit of her hands,

And let her own works praise her in the gates

I read this verse and I feel like I am so far away from becoming this person.  The wonderful thing is though, that God is right beside me helping me become this person.  Step by Step, Day by Day He is with me helping become this person. 

Each day he is pruning me to become the person that He wants to become.  He loves me that much.  He is molding me and shaping me.  Here recently He is helping me and showing me what He has for me and helping me to receive it.  He is showing me love, mercy and grace.  He is my ABBA father, He is my Daddy Father. 

The other night I had what my husband calls "a Nuclear Meltdown."  It was far worse that I could have ever imagine.  It was like something snapped in me.  I couldn't control anything.  God took that moment and shaped it into something I couldn't ever have imagine.  I was in bed and cried like a baby on my husband shoulders.  I told him everything Lie I had ever believe or felt about my self.  It was something that I need to do and I had felt God telling me to, but couldn't get myself to let go enough to do it.

I am on my way to becoming that person, God is with me helping me.  I am on my way!!!

Another February Snow

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it all!!!

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February Snow.

This has been a crazy winter for us in the south.  Where we live in Southeast Arkansas, we don't always get snow.  This year we have gotten more than usual.  My boys have been loving it.  We are suppose to get some more Wednesday.  I never know if we are really going to get it or not. I am not really sure if I want more snow or not.  I just hope the boys enjoy it and have fun.


We had the dogs this time around and they LOVED playing in the snow.



The boys kept asking, "Can we go play, Can we GO PLAY?"  It really only lasted about a day.  It started melting the next day for us. 
I just love this picture of Micah.  He is so wonderful and loving.  He adores his older brother.  Micah can't wait for Levi to come home from school everyday, so he can play with him.  He doesn't let any one run over him.  He loves to help us cook and clean.  He is strong-willed and won't do anything just because you tell him to. He is growing way to fast and I am not sure how He has gotten to be such a little boy and not that little baby.


Levi, just has a sparkle about him.  He is so kind and loving.  He loves to play with his friends.  He just a wonderful little boy!! He loves to play video games and play outside.  He is a home body.  When we have to go somewhere he just, doesn't run and jump to go, unlike his brother.  He is very smart and doesn't tell you all of the things he is learning at school (which irritates me! HA! probably why he does it.)  Everyone is his friend! 

January snow day take two

So We all went out and had a big snowball fight.  Lets just say "all is not fair in love and way."  The boys don't play fair, but they expect you to.  They didn't want you to hit them in the face, but they did mind hitting you in face.

We mad a snowman and put one of Daddy's Arkansas Razorback hats on it.  My husband is a big Razorback fan!

These are all of Micah. These are my favorite of him. Like I said before, He loved the snow.  He would run and just jump in the snow.  Never have I seen a kids with such reckless abandoment when it came to the snow.

Micah was more adventerous in the snow than Levi.  Levi loved the through the snowballs though!

Isn't

It

Pretty!! {grin}

Though I do haven't so say, that I am not sure I am made for this cold weather. {ha}

January snow day

Living in Arkansas we don't get very much snow.  This year for some reason we have gotten more than normal.  Our first snow was in January.  It was beautiful.  Everything shuts down around here, especially because we live in the rual part of the state.  So here are a few of our pictures.

They just had to go out a play in the snow while if was coming down.

It was beautiful.
They had to taste the snow.

They had to make snowballs.

They rolled around in the snow.
We had so much fun.
I have never seen a child that loved snow as much as Micah.  Seeing the snow through their eyes makes it so fun and so beautiful.

We made snow angles.

Snow ball fights

Oh!  We just had so much fun wish I would share all of the pictures. They are so good.  We enjoyed it so much.  Made some great memories. 
Maybe more pictures tomorrow!!  I just have to share! {grin}

Going back in time.

I came across the picture of Micah, because apprently I have run out of room in my Photo Bucket account.  I saw this picture of Micah He was probably two at the time.  Just had to share.  My baby has grow up so much.
He was always making crazy faces, and still does to this day.  I love this little man so much!!!  I has a zeal for life like not other.  He has fun and LOVES the laugh and make other people laugh.

I am so very thankful for this little man!!

First pictures of me

So i am trying to lose weight and since I have had a blog for a while I thought I might try to blog about it and document what I will loose.

So here are my first pictures. I took them January 25th. So I will hopefully take more on February 25th. They aren't very good because I took them with my phone. Hopefully, next time I will have help!








So stay tuned for more updates to come. Leave a comment if you would like any questions or any thing. Help me stay accountable PLEASE!!


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The other new dog

So in my last post I told you about the new small dog we got, now I will tell you the story of the big dog.

Last week Levi kept us up off and on one night complaining of his ear hurting so we took him to his pediatrician in Little Rock. We stayed the night at my mim's house.

Steve had to meet his brother in Cabot for something. Steve called and asked me if he wanted me to call and meet up breeder about a dog he had been looking into. I told him no not right now.

I wasn't completely sold on the idea of a big dog. I had talked my self out of a Great Dane. I had always wanted one, but wasn't sold on idea of house breaking and training a dog. Just not sure.

Well, I went with my sister to my nieces swim meet, and steve had left Levi with my mom for a couple of hours. When I got back there was Steve with this big puppy.




She is an Airedale Terrier. She will get anywhere between 75-100 pounds. Her mom was 100 pounds.

So now was are house breaking a dog. I am not enjoying it all all. Ugh my husband! Gotta love him!!! : )

Oh and she is already bigger than what she was in these pictures.





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New Dogs

I have to start when Steve and I first got married. We knew we wanted something to take care of but didn't think we were ready for kids, so we did the next best thing and got a dog. We decided on a miniature schnauzer. We loved her so much and she was the best dog.

So fast forward a eight years, we are now living in Amity, AR. We don't have a fence and we (Steve, Levi, Micah, and I) were all at the road cleaning out the back of Steve's truck. Izzy came out there with us and she walked into the road. Steve called her and she came back, but about that time a truck came by and hit her.

I didn't want a dog for the longest time, but last Tuesday Steve con me into going to look at a toy miniature schnauzer. I fell in love with her. She is six months old and the breeder needed to get rid of her, so we got a great price. She has adapted so well.






We got another dog but that is another story for another day! Ha!




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My little blessings

I walked by the boys playroom tonight and found them all nestled in their covers on the floor. I love seeing them do special things like this. The special moments let me know that they do love each other. They are not only brothers, but friends.

I snapped this picture with my phone so it isn't the best quality! I love these little men so much! I am so thankful and blessed to be called their mommy!





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Alone with my thoughts.

I am alone with my thoughts right now.  My husband is surfing the internet doing so research.  (This isn't a good thing usually. Me alone with my thoughts.)


I have this bad habbit of analizing everything. Everything I say everything I do.  I beat myself up.  I don't need anyone else to, I do it enough for everyone.

I have been reading a book called Captivating. I definitly recommend this book to anyone.  It bascially helps us understand how God made us and how he finds us Captivating.  How He created us to desire him and how as women we look to our men to fill this place and it is for God to fill not anyone else.  Like I said it is a great book.

I am learning and trying to put so many principles that I have learned over this last year in to practise.  Practise makes perfect.  That is what we have always been told anyway.  I am trying to learn to lean back and trust God.  That I can truly count on some one and it is him.  People are flawed.  Everyone I love and hold dear are flawed.  It is inevitable that They are going to fail me.  Truth be told, they have.  Some have failed me in some major ways.  I am learning to walk forgiveness, to forgive them, and forgive myself. 

Also in this book it talks about things that we have grown up believing lies that I have believed about myself.  Some of them were spoken and other were not.  I drew some to conclusions my self.  I am processing them and I am not sure how much i am going to share. 

Just know that God really does love you.  He has your best in mind.  No, His ways aren't our ways (Isiah 55:8-9).  So we don't always understand them. 

He had a plan for you life.  It is not to destroy you, but to "prosper you, to give you a hope and a future".(Jeremiah 29:11)

He wants to heal you and set you free from the thoughts and baggage that has you bound.  Just seek him with all of you heart and He will do it.  "He Heals the Brokenhearted and bind up their wounds."(Psalm 147:3)

Our heart is what God wants. He longs for us to fall in love with him.  To want to spend time with him like we do our friends and family.  He is constantly doing things in our lives to show us.  Ask God to show you today what He is doing in your life today.  How is he trying to get your attention?  What little ways is he trying to show us his love?  That is what I am asking him to show me.