It is late at night and I am up.

It is late at night and I am up by my self which isn't a good thing because my mind races with thought. I have been thinking about going back to school. I HATE school. I don't like test (which I think most people don't)! I don't like homework or projects that have to be completed! I don't like to read (the bible is about the only think I read besides blogs)! I have really poor sentence structure and grammar. Spelling Oh thank GOD for spell check (I honestly don't know what people did before it)! Most of the time I feel utterly dump!! Yes, and most of it is because I don't have an education and there are BILLIONS upon BILLIONS of people out there who are smarter than me (which really is okay).

In the same breath, I know that I am ordained of God. He is guiding my steps! He will not let me go somewhere I am not suppose to! He will open the doors that need to be open and close the doors that need to be close. He is not going to fail me!
Proverbs 3:5,6

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight. [a]

Jeremiah 29 11-13

11. For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
12. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.
13. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

God is absolutely not going to let me fail as long as I am doing my part. If am seeking HIM, HIS WILL, and "lean not to my own understanding" He will guide me! I know it for sure. I may mess up, but my life over all is not a failure. God has a plan for me. I don't live to please this world or the people that are in it. I live to please God and that has to be my focus. I have to to my best to read, pray, and praise HIM! He will work out the rest.

I don't want to go back to school for worldly knowledge, I want to go back so that I can do something for HIM. I have really thought about going back to be a school teacher. I want to impact people's lives for HIM. Now, don't get me wrong it would really be nice to have the extra income. We depend totally on God (He uses the Church) for our income. I don't not work outside of the home. Even if you work out side the church God still give you that income.

My other option is to maybe take some photography class and do that to earn extra money. That avenue God only know what kind of impact that could make on people. In that field you meet a lot of different people.

I honestly love both or at least I think I would. I just want to do what GOD wants me to do. If it is continuing to stay at home with my kids then that is GREAT too! Please be praying with me.

(It is now 1:00 and I started at 12:00)